Lizzie - Thanks for checking in on me, here I am :)

I feel like I haven’t posted in a while, probably because I haven’t. It’s been a week, huh?

Well, WI last Saturday showed no loss, no gain. Which is fine by me, really — I mean, as long as I don’t gain, I’m doing something right. I have a sneaking suspicion that this is what my body does at this point in my cycle — it’s about 2 weeks before TOM and I’m getting my typical skin and mood things, so I think that explains the lack of loss.

This week — I have no idea how this week is going to shape up. I don’t feel like I’ve lost anything. Eating has been generally bad… or at least, bad as I define it. I guess technically I haven’t crossed my FP line — I’m sure I’ve eaten at least 30 of them but I don’t think it’s gone over 35. So hopefully, as long as I’m careful tonight and tomorrow, I might see a little shift in the numbers. What really messed me up this week was a box of graham crackers — what a poor decision it was to bring anything into my house that came from the cookie aisle, I should know myself better than that! “Oh, they’re low-fat graham crackers, it’ll be okay.” And then Sunday becomes one giant graham cracker-fest, with lunch comprising of a grilled cheese sandwich and about 10 graham crackers. I’ve been over my target points every day this week, which feels strange because I’m not used to eating like that.

I also haven’t exercised in over a week.

Well, if I DO see a gain Saturday (which is a possibility), I’ll know why. I won’t be gaining despite doing everything right, which I think is one of the hardest things to see when you’re actively trying to be healthier. I’ve done nearly everything wrong this week (I say nearly because despite everything I’ve made a couple good choices and haven’t gone over FPs yet) so I’ll definitely deserve whatever shows up.

I’ve also stopped being diligent in keeping up with tracking in my WW journal this past week, which I think is indicative of my dwindling focus. I come back to it to find blank pages I can’t fill in accurately because I can’t remember what I ate. I’m headed down some very dangerous paths here, guys, and I need to get myself back on track before I start giving up hope.

I think part of my problem, too, is that I’ve been at this for 2 months now, and lost 8 pounds. Now, I’m usually the one to tell people “be patient, you can’t control the pace at which your body loses.” But 1 pound per week sounds awfully slow. Then again, if I continue losing 1 pound a week for the rest of the year, I’ll be 52 pounds down by New Year’s. That’s okay I guess. Sigh. I don’t know. I’m just in a funk, and maybe it’s hormone-related, too. What I need to do is start exercising again — get out there and do it. that’ll probably help me feel better, wouldn’t you think?