I have nothing to say other than that I am STILL on my way up. I thought I had reversed that trend earlier this week, but lo and behold, I check today and I have in fact been moving in the wrong dinrection again. From Aug-Oct I was frustrated because I was maintaining, not losing and not gaining – now what I wouldn’t give to just be maintaining my old 184 lbs again, not staring the 190’s in the face once again! This is ALWAYS where I fail. Every single time I’ve tried to lose weight successfully I have quit around 185 and gained everything back. I don’t want to gain everything back! I like how my clothes fit, I got rid of my really big stuff, I have a couple things that are just a bit too small that I want to get into!!
Of course, I know why I’m gaining – I eat well for four days and pig out for three. I haven’t exercised since the day after Thanksgiving due to my foot/knee debacle. I haven’t been cooking at home as much as I have been eating out and not making mindful choices. So why is it so hard for me to get back on track, if I know why this is happening to me?
I remember one WW meeting from earlier in the year in which we explored the concept of limiting thoughts. When you say that you “always” or “never” do something, what room do you give yourself to change? I say I “always” quit right about now. That I can “never” have enough willpower to avoid crap food. Where does that leave me? I’ve just told myself, basically, that I can’t succeed because I never have, so I never will. I need to start applying what I learn at meetings – my negative, limiting thoughts aren’t getting me anywhere. So…
Instead of: “I have never successfully continued to lose weight past 185.”
I will try: “In the past I may not have succeeded, but this time I know I can, and I will. No matter how long it takes, I will succeed.”
Sounds cheesy, and not as succinct as my first thought, but I really ought to work on rooting out my negative self-talk if I’m going to make any progress. I will succeed. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. I’ve got to do something, because this upward trend is getting scary….
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December 20, 2008 at 12:14 pm
Xan
Jaime, I did exactly the same thing when i was in my 20s and 30s. My adult “set point” when I was good was 190. I could not — would not — get below that 185, whether it was for fear of being thin (which is what the books say) or some other reason, I don’t know. I hate to admit that it was fear, but it probably was.
I remember buying a dress a size too small and looking at it thinking how great it would be to wear it — and then go out to eat and have (my standard dinner at the time) a bacon double cheeseburger with fries, several drinks and several cokes. And probably desert. One weekend, in 1976, I went to New York weighing 189 pounds, walked 13 blocks from my hotel to Broadway (where I had saw a different play every night for four days) and back twice a day. I lost four pounds, to 185, my post-college low. I stayed there for maybe a week.
So if you’d like another motivator, try this one. Do it now, or when you’re 55, you too can weigh 300 pounds :) It took me a year to get below TWO 90. I was stuck there, too.
Good luck to you! You can do it!